A book called"Belong" that didn't feel worthy but somehow got 3rd Place and People's Choice award at an art exhibit. . .
Last December during an art meet up at the Habitats Exhibit at Rosewood Gallery, my friend Barbara offered up, "You should exhibit at the Works on Paper!"
My first thoughts were exciting temptation - - then tiny pangs of imposter syndrome consumed me as I scanned the gallery imagining the reality of a submission. I'm used to urging others to take a spotlight -- not putting myself in one.
I quickly remembered the pledge I made to myself (and others) to cheerlead more of my own creative stories. The little storm of insecurity calmed remembering this quote:
"Your imposter syndrome is a right of passage." Chetna | Mosaiceye
A promise being a promise, I gathered my courage and submitted two encaustic pieces on a Friday. Surrounded by other incredible artists and beautiful art; I was proud, overwhelmed and terrified. After drop off - I sprinted to my car. No joke.
All weekend I felt obsessive prodding to do a 3rd submission of a book. I drove to my studio and brought "Belong" home. I fretted all weekend and quite possibly drove Terry a wee bit bananas with my rickety confidence. I escorted "Belong" to Rosewood on deadline day. As I stood in line with my lil messy story encircled by very fancy fine art the nagging self-doubt returned to tug at my heart. I assured her all is well and carried on.
"Belong" was left in the good hands of Rosewood and I thought to myself, well, now, I can check that off my list! "That. Is. That!" But the book had other plans . . .